Tharp On: Love
“You have a big pot belly!” she’d admonish. “Why you have such big pot belly?”
“Uh, I don’t know, I just drink too much beer,” I’d weakly reply.
“You should stop eating dinner.”
Let’s be clear here: She wasn’t suggesting that I skip dinner that night, but rather that I give it up altogether. Can you imagine that? Giving up dinner? What would I say to my friends?
“Hey Chris. You wanna come grab a bite with us?”
“Sorry, guys. I can’t do it. I quit. I quit dinner. I’m on the dinner wagon. I’m in dinner recovery.”
We eventually parted ways and I got together with a wispy, red-haired English girl. I loved her and she loved me, only hers was the kind of love that evaporated every time I left the room. She finally evaporated out of the country, and again I was alone. Cue violins.
Next in line was another Korean girl. She was tiny and adorable, with bobbed hair and big, forever blinking eyes. On our first date we walked and held hands. At one point she turned to me, smiled, and said: “I love you, Chris!”
I was trapped. Here I was, on a side street near the main gate of Pusan National University, standing in front of a restaurant that specialized in BOTH coffee and spaghetti. What could I do but clear my throat and say:
“Uh… I love you… too… Bo-ra.”
I have been in relationships for more than a year without uttering those three fateful words, yet there I was, spitting them out on the first date. Dating Hello Kitty incarnate will do that to a man. Hello, Asia.
What I soon also realized was this: Little Bo-ra spoke no English – almost none. I couldn’t speak Korean, so what could we talk about? It was like dating a blow-up doll that required taxi fare. She was a master of the text message, however, and it didn’t take long before I was inundated.
“chris. u handsome.” (heart heart star heart triangle-eyed happy face)
“chris. where meet?” (star spiral heart heart winking kitten)
“chris. i miss you.” (spiral star heart heart upside down crying hedgehog)
The bits of English I could make out — but the codes? They were indecipherable, a gobbledygook of cute symbols, animals, and emoting faces. It was like some kind of Korean girl hieroglyphics, only I lacked the Kimchi stone.
The final text message I received needed no explanation, however. At 4:30 a.m. my sad phone buzzed, delivering the following missive:
“chris. i sorry. we have breakup.”
Live by the text message, die by the text message.
Now I am older — 40 years old — and wiser, yet still unmarried. Sometimes, when drinking with older Korean men, the subject comes up, causing them to suffer near-aneurysms. Their faces tremble and a frothy mixture of dong dong ju and spittle forms in the corners of their gasping mouths:
“But why? Why aren’t you married?? (shaking head) You must-uh!! You must-uh marry!!!” (slamming hand on table)
“I will, I will,” I assure them.
“But when? When???” they invariably ask, not even inquiring if I have anyone in mind yet.
Here’s where I pause, respectfully fill their bowl with more rice wine, and calmly state:
“Next spring, here in Korea, under the shroud of the world’s best cherry blossoms.”
You can read more Chris Tharp on his blog, Homely Planet.